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A prayer of sorts (or some scattered things running through my head)

January 21, 2009

Criminal by Fiona Apple

I’ve beena bad, bad girl
I’ve been careless with a delicate man
And it’s a sad, sad world
When a girl will break a boy just because she can

Don’t you tell me to deny it
I’ve done wrong and I want to suffer for my sins
I’ve come to you ’cause I need guidance to be true
And I just don’t know where I can begin

What I need is a good defense
‘Cause I’m feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I’ve sinned against
Because he’s all I ever knew of love

Heaven help me for the way I am
Save me from these evil deeds before I get them done
I know tomorrow brings the consequence at hand
But I keep living this day like the next will never come

Oh help me but don’t tell me to deny it
I’ve got to cleanse myself of all these lies ’till I’m good enough for him
I’ve got a lot to lose and I’m bettin’ high so I’m begging you
Before it ends just tell me where to begin

What I need is a good defense
‘Cause I’m feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I’ve sinned against
Because he’s all I ever knew of love

Let me know the way
Before there’s hell to pay
Give me room to lay the law and let me go
I’ve got to make a play
To make my lover stay
So what would an angel say the devil wants to know

What I need is a good defense
‘Cause I’m feeling like a criminal
And I need to be redeemed
To the one I’ve sinned against
Because he’s all I ever knew of looooooooooooooooooooooooooove
Yeah yeah yeah uhh uhh uhhhhhh…

Hey hey hey haaayyyyyyyyyyyyy yeahhhhhhh yeahhhhhhhhhh hiyee ehhh…

It’s just some little snippet that’s jangling about in my head and needs to come out…

He tells me to remember who I am…

But what if all I can remember…

Is that I am the Creature from the Black Lagoon?

Hail Mary full of grace…
the Lord is with thee…
blessed art thou among women,
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb Jesus.
Holy Mary, mother of God, pray for us sinners
Now
and at the hour of our death.

Amen.

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11 Comments leave one →
  1. seashellseller permalink
    January 21, 2009 12:03 pm

    Hope you are not identifying with this song. Lots of prayers bearing you through these days.

  2. January 21, 2009 12:23 pm

    Been thinkin’ bout’cha. Hang in there.

  3. January 21, 2009 12:24 pm

    Yeah, what seashell said. You are not a bad person. There’s got to be limits past which you are not responsible for the pain & grief a person wants to put themselves through (see terms like “martyr complex” and “passive-aggressive” as add’l references).

    At some point, everyone has to suck it up, be a grown-up, & learn to be responsible for themselves and stop blaming others (“bad” wife, “bad” boss, etc…) for their troubles.

    {{{E}}}

  4. susankay permalink
    January 21, 2009 8:26 pm

    Eileen — you are a joy and a gift. Anyone who is not clear about that — needs to pray.

    love,

  5. January 21, 2009 9:38 pm

    Minor correction.”…blessed art thou amongst women”..not sinners.

    ((((((((E))))))))

  6. January 21, 2009 10:24 pm

    Ditto to what the others said.

    And hugs from me to you.

  7. episcopalifem permalink*
    January 21, 2009 10:56 pm

    Ooops..corrected. My bad mood this morning even influenced my recitation of my faovrite mantra…all fixed now D!

  8. January 22, 2009 12:19 am

    Hail, Eileen, full of grace,. The Lord is with you.

  9. January 23, 2009 11:00 pm

    Eileen!!! Sending you every good thought wish and prayer.

  10. January 24, 2009 4:16 pm

    (((Eileen)))

  11. January 27, 2009 12:11 am

    Clearly, you need to have a good laugh. Go to YouTube and get some Vicar of Dibley end jokes. Or Eddie Izzard. Or . . . well, anybody but this song. I’m so glad the link has been disabled. I didn’t want to hear it anyway.

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